Once In A Blue Moon....

Yo... hey everyone... not sure whether there are still anyone checking
my blog since its been abandoned for quite some time due to
circumstances beyond my control...

It's already 3 months after my finals and i'm considered as graduated.
After coming back from my Lang Tengah trip in June, I was kicked out
of the house by my dad... (JUST KIDDING) ;) what actually happened
was my younger bro took over my room and i went over to my aunt's
condo to live in. I have limited time to online at home and my aunt's
place doesn't have a PC so i can't update this blog of mine...

After 3rd week of holidaying and partying.. I went to an employment
agency for a job interview for the post of Management Trainee at
Sony Supply Chain Solutions Malaysia (SSCSM) Here's the sequence of.
events which I got hired:

I'm using X as the day as I forgotten the actual date already and am too
lazy to look at the calendar.. ;)


Tuesday
X day Alex (my 2ndary school buddy) after yamcha said he will give
the employment agency my hp no

Wednesday
X+1 day Adecco the employment agency called me up for an interview

Thursday
X+2 day Sony HR call's up for any interview

Friday
X+3 day Sony HR tell's me that I'm hired...

Monday (2nd of July)
X+6 day I start my first day at SSCSM


It's been 2 months since working in SSCSM....
I'm attached to the warehouse division and support the operations of
Sony Malaysia which is based in MidValley (all those who have went
to find parking in Mid Valley at H Parking Lot and on the 4th Floor
have no doubt seen the car park spaces reserved for them)
I'm currently working 8.30am to 8.30pm... 12 hours a day on weekdays
on Saturdays, I work from 8.30am to 3 or 4pm...

SSCSM is located in Bandar Baru Bangi which sound very far.. everytime
I tell people I'm working in Bangi their eyes will go huge with unbelief...
It's actually quite near about 25km drive and it takes me about 20 minutes
to get there in the mornings and about 30 minutes to get home as the
road there is on the opposite of the peak traffic flow...

Working in a warehouse is a totally different environment from
a desk job.. It's quite warm and hot in here.. by 9am in the morning my
body's soaked with so much sweat and stickiness that I wished I could
go home and bath already.. the first thing I think of after clocking out
after work is to take a bath... There is also a lot of manual labour
involve.... I won't be going into specifics but let's just say that I'm
getting loads of exercise everyday...

I can't show any photos of how the warehouse looks like in case I get
sued for disclosing sensitive information... It's a finished goods
warehouse so it is a prime target for robberies as the goods are all
high value goods.... Imagine a memory stick which is worth rm200
in the market now and imagine 10,000 of them in a 30cm by 30cm
box... Just imagine how much such a small box is worth... There are
cameras on the traffic lights around the Bangi area just for the
security of the container trucks heading in and out...

However being a finshed goods warehouse, I see all the products
which are meant for sale in Malaysia... whenever you see a Sony
product in shopping complexes or electrical shops, it most
probably has my fingerprints on itor has been seen first by me..
and even my sweat may be on them too... ;)

There's another month to go in the Management Trainee programme
before I need to do a presentation before the Management and they'll
decide whether I'm good enough for them... or I'll decide whether
they are good enough for me...

Well that's as much as I can say in a single breath and hope I kept you
entertained enough to read till this last sentence...

I'm not sure when I'll have another chance to post again but do drop
by ONCE IN A BLUE MOON....

Tat Men's Washing of Dust.... (Chinese Direct Translation)

It was on last Saturday nite that my old secondary school
buddy Tat Men threw a clubbing outing and sponsored it fully.
4 bottles of Chivas and an apartment above Coffee Bean. He
sponsored 300 GBP for that nite... and it was like a coming
home of sorts... He was the fastest among my secondary school
buddies to get a Degree in Civil Engineering, a Master of
Science and is now working in the UK, Nottingham (Derby)
to be exact.. (Happy now Tat??)

Next month when my exams are over, anotehr of my secondary
school friend, Stan Wong will be coming back for a holiday..
Yo... bro if ur reading this blog i'll be expecting you
to outdo Tat Men since it's ur Birthday Celebration..so
bring enough Aussies with ya....lolz

Here are some pics of what happened that nite at Poppy's
unfortunately Tat Men wasn't in the photo...

















Me and Yee Mun






















Jeffrey with his hypnotizing light...wahahaha





















Choon Weng, Sze Lynn & Kenny





















The Newest Couple from S.A.D: Alfred and Jessycca
















The traffic pile up beneath the apartment...
Waited till 4.30am b4 it cleared...

Wednesday.... 8 days to Finals!!!

I went to college today to renew my books (which I've
been hogging like for almost half the year already).
Studied despite the comfortable weather which made me
miss my bed so much... :( In the afternoon got dragged
by Ernest and ended up in DJ Netmaster and takei till
6pm before having dinner next door.

We then went to the A & W in Taman Jaya to study... for
once I followed the guys as there was a LRT station
nearby and I could leave on myself... Reached there and
started work at 7pm studied till 9pm before leaving for
home... The guys continued staying on most probably till
12am or something.. Ernest was even joking saying that
they'll head down to Klang to get bak kut teh at 4am...


















The guys all serious and stuff... how often do u see them like this??

The funny thing about the A & W there was there was a lot
of houseflies hovering around... Don't understand how a
fast food restaurant can have so unhygienic... :(
Ernest who was quite distracted tried to catch the
housefly a few times and managed to catch one in the end
hence the pic below...






















Ernest with his "Gotcha Pose" he showed the true action for the
Chinese Saying "Pak Wu Ying"

A Sleepless Night for a Sleep Addict

I made a resolution to study late last night as I
didn't do much for the day... So after my dinner,
I straight away slept from 8pm to 9.30pm to get
enough rest. I normally average 5 hours of sleep
on weekdays. Took my bath and ate some oranges for
a healthy dose of Vitamin C.. Went online for a
while before starting studies. I decided to get
a extra boost so I took two packs of Old Town
3 in 1 Coffee and mixed it into a single cup...

When I started studying, my stomach felt funny...
It was then that I realised that I ate oranges
earlier on and it would have made my stomach empty
when I downed the coffee. So it left me with a
weird feeling as if something was rolling around in
my stomach.. felt like vomitting at a certain point
of time if I didn't sit up straight...

Continued studying till 3am before going down and
cooking a bowl of maggi mee to fill my stomach..
Went back up to sleep as I planned to to leave
house at 9am for the college library the next
morning... To my suprise I was wide awake.. couldn't
sleep and my mind was so active thought about lots
of stuff among them, renovating my room, my future,
how to improve my CV, my job employment prospects,
relationship stuff, friends, holidays and many
others which have slipped my mind.. Only started to
doze off at 7am but then i kept sleeping for a while
and then suddenly waking up in short cycles...
finally gave up and woke up at 8.15am.. Yup one and
a half hours of sleep... But I damn hyper... hitched
a ride from Alfred to college as he was doing
installation at Pantai Bangsar... Studied non stop
and I meant non-stop no usual dozing off and stuff..
Finally called it a day at 5pm and went home...

Upon arriving home straight away crashed on my bed
and slept from 6pm till 10pm. Then woke up and had
my dinner... and now onlining typing this...

The lesson for the day is... Old Town Coffee really
keeps u awake and when in need of staying awake
try this combo... take an orange or two and then after
2 hours, drink 2 satchets of coffee in a cup... its a
combo I know i'll avoid unless it is the nite before
my exams...lol...

A Guys Nite Out... I know, I know it sounds damn Gay... :p

It was Tuesday night and I had already made the resoulution
to stay at home and be a good boy... I told myself that I
wouldn't be going out anymore before the finals with the
exception of one nite when my friend (Tat Men) will be back
from the UK...

I received a call from Joe asking me out to just have a
normal "yamcha" session which did not involve any alcohol,
clubbing, pool, dota, snooker and other such stuff... just
plain old yamcha. He was damn stoned and was driving around
on the LDP as he didn't want to stay at home. I ended up
agreeing and managed to negotiate with my dad for the Vios
by saying i'll be back by 12am...

Met up with him behind Steven's Corner and then proceeded
to pick Noah up and went to a Cafe called Happy Cafe in
Happy Garden... doesn't necessarily mean that everyone
there will be happy though... ;) we had normal drinks
and a plate of french fries as we sat there talking crap.
However Noah then suggested a change in place and I ended
up suggesting Cheras Business Center as I was itching
for some Tom Yam soup and Siew See Hum (Burnt Cockles)...

Dropped Noah off at his house so that he could pick up
his car and we headed off to Cheras... Upon arriving we
called Ernest out as well and ordered a Tom Yam soup
and siew see hum.... was damn delicious although the
serving size of the soup was much more smaller then it
used to be... We ended up having two bowls of see hum
between me, Noah and Ernest coz Joe didn't really eat
see hum. Noah was so high on see hum he ordered an
additional bowl just for himself... sweatz...






The plate containing all the see hum I ate... :)















The remains of our Thai style yamcha session





After Noah finished his see hum we called it a night and
I reached home by 1am... ;) went online and then read
a few pages from the story book before going to sleep...

I'm a story book addict....

On Sunday as me and my family was on our way to my grandparent's
home in Kepong, we stopped over at the Times Bookshop Warehouse
Clearance Sale in PJ. Wasn't really interested in buying any books
given the close proximity of my finals... Suprisingly there was
quite a huge crowd and there were a lot of books on sale going
for prices as low as RM2 to the usual best sellers at their over
inflated price.






















At first I told myself that I wouldn't buy any books as I would
surely read them non-stop until I finish them and would have
wasted hours meant for studying... but unfortunately the temptation
of getting a book under my parent's tab was too tempting and I
gave into it. I got a Tom Clancy book, entitled Bio Strike
























Managed to keep my hand off the book on Sunday however given the
two public holidays, I ended up reading and finishing all 453 pages
of the book within 3 days... Well once I get started I would like
to finish it ASAP so that I can get my normal scheduled studies
back on track...

Overall the book was quite interesting and was a good way to
pass time instead of just rotting around in the house...

F.Y.I.

Just a note that I won't be updating the blog
as frequently as usual. This is due to the
impending arrival of my finals and also due
to the fact that there's not much to blog
about since i'm at home most of the time...
Am undergoing changes in feelings from time
to time...hmm...moods may swing wildly
sometimes... :(

A thought provoking poem...

"Ten years from now...you will have achieved
A level of growth at great personal cost.

If you have made significant progress towards
Achieving your personal and professional goals,
You will have done so at the cost of
Self denial,
Self discipline,
And even self - sacrifice.

However if you have not made significant progress,
You will have paid with
Lost opportunities,
Broken promises,
And diminished dreams.

The choice is yours, both sucess and failure come at
A great cost, and true sucess demands
a great character and dedication.

...Karl Gretz...


It has been 5 years after leaving secondary school
and I'm at the midway point now. I will be entering
the real world after 4 and a half years of tertiary
education. This poem really hits the point for me
and makes me wonder what have I achieved within this
5 years and what will I achieve for the next 5 years..

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Caught in the middle....

I'm sure those that have come to know me pretty well enough or
do often hang out with me realise, I'm one of those unfortunate
souls who do not have their own means of transport i.e. a car....
Therefore everywhere I go, I have to depend on people giving me
a lift or our own wonderful Malaysian public transpot... RapidKL...
Generally to even go somewhere, I will need either my dad or my
aunt to give me a ride to the nearby LRT Station and same goes
when I'm coming home too...

On typical after college outings, my friends normally drop me off
at the Kelana Jaya Lrt Station. From there I need to take a 30mins
LRT ride to Masjid Jamek before changing over to STAR LRT for
another 15mins ride before waiting for either my dad or my aunt to
pick me up. That is one of the reasons I do not like to go home too
late as I feel that I'm troubling my dad or my aunt to ask them to
wait till 8.30pm or 9.30pm to come and pick me up from the lrt.

As those of me who are close to me know, my parents are quite
strict with me... I do not go out at night on weekdays except for
really good reasons and normally do not return home late at night.
Especially when I have been out for the whole day since morning..
You see, the two bathroom's with heaters for taking baths are in
my grandmother's room and parents room who normally by
10 or 10.30pm are already preparing to sleep. I do not like to
use their bathroom at that time..coz I may wake them up or
disturb their sleep..and I don't think I can get through the day
without taking a bath... :p therefore I never really go home
too late and always try to be home before 10pm if I have been
out the whole day...

Here come's my delimma... When you have to depend on your
friends to give you a ride to the nearest lrt station, you will end
up being caught in the middle and torn up by guilt.. You see a
typical situation was what happened today...

I had exams at 9am so I woke up at 6am and left my house at
6.30am for the lrt station. After my exams, I went to look for
Joe at Hock Lee's where we then went to waste our time at
Netmaster for an hour while waiting for Yee Mun and then
headed to 1U to catch a movie with Noah and Weng Fong. After
the movie I was hungry as it was already 4.30pm and my last
meal was at 10.45am. So we went to a mamak called Mohsin
in TTDI. After the mamak they went to join the rest of the
group who were meeting in TTDI to try out a supposedly
famous place for burgers... Though I had earlier eaten a nasi
goreng kampung, I wanted to try the burger too so I did not
raise any protest as the 5 of us headed over there... we met
up with Kenneth, Alex, Jia Wei, Ernest, Kevin and there was
a total of 10 guys there....

After the meal, what I had expected came through, the guys
wanted to takei at Netmaster... Now let's be realistic, it was
already 7pm and they would usually takei until 10pm the
earliest or the wee hours in the morning at the latest... As
usual everyone looked at me and I had to raise the fact that
I needed a ride to the LRT station and couldn't join the guys.
Honestly I realy wanted to join the guys to takei but I could
not as I would be home late which would not be acceptable to
my parents... I was then made fun of as usual and was
subjected to the guilt treatment (as in they won't drop me off
at the station or I was anti-social as in causing them to less
one takei kaki) I have always been made fun of due to the
inability to stay out late and been played the guilt card several
times... but can't they see... I really have no choice... eventhough
these always happen I still feel guilty and pain everytime...
Who wants to be made fun of due to their lack of transport and
the need to go home early??? It may seem funny to you guys
but I really do not find anything funny in it...

I'm not mad or anything cause it really is a fact that I can't go
home late and that I don't have my own means of transport...
but I'm sad that those who are my friends, who have their own
transports and do not have curfews... are not understanding
enough of my unfortunate situation... who use this as a way
to make fun of me and also make me feel guilty as in I'm
ruining their fun by going home early... I have my own feelings
too... I may be laughing with you guys while you make fun of
me but deep down I'm torn by the want to have fun with you
guys and also the fact that I need to be home...

This is not an isolated incident, I get this a lot too when going
out with my secondary school friends and other group of friends.
It so happens that I was with my college group of friends today
and it really struck a raw nerve with me that I feel I need to
get this off my chest by blogging about it and used today as
a actual incident.

Sek Yuen Restaurant, Pudu

On Sunday night I went for a family dinner at Sek Yuen
Restaurant in Pudu. It was my uncle's birthday and he
decided to have a "makan" there. Sek Yuen is a very old
restaurant... I'm sure some of you guys have heard of it.
In fact I passed by it so many times during the period
where I was still taking the old Intrakota busses to
school. I always wondered whether how the interior of
the restaurant looked like as it was quite shabby and run
down...The restaurant however is still going strong despite
all these years...was it due to the quality of its food that
kept it alive or the nostalgic atmosphere it provided...
no one knows...

However the interior of the restaurant really makes you
feel as if you were transported back in time to a old
restaurant what with the antique wooden chairs, the
paintings, the utensils such as glasses and chopsticks which
were pretty worn out... Here are some pics of the interior
I took while waiting for the dishes to be served...























The restaurant's building... looks like a old
Shanghai night club or something with all
the light bulbs for decoration..

(This is the supposedly new and air-conned
building... there is the original single storey
restaurant next to it which is open air)


















The entrance to Sek Yuen.. hmm the lighting and
tinted glass make it look like a "Mah Kei Cheong"
(Mah Kei Cheong is the illegal gambling centres
popular during our secondary school days)

















The interior of the first floor of the restaurant... Notice
the lanterns and wooden wall panellings and wooden
chairs and steel chairs.. where else can you find them now??
The curtains looked like floor cloth which had been recycled
and sew together.... damn old school look

















The back part of the restaurant...notice the shabby
arrangements and clutter...






















This chair maybe older then me for all I know...
Was sitting on it and worrying whether it would
finally give way over my weight... ;)
The seat was too small to give full support to my
posterior... :)
















Notice the lantern dangling from the ceiling.. really
cool in sort of a way but also creep at the same time..
There were several dangling around... and also take
a look at the scenic picture hanging behind... lots of
pictures which are really old but authentic...


I'm not sure whether was it due to the large crowd and
the dishes being last minute ordered instead of pre-ordered
but the dishes didn't taste nice at all.. Even the presentation
was very bad and just plain.. sorry no pics of the dishes coz
was too hungry at that time.. ;)

But according to my two cousins who have tried the food at
the restaurant on two separate occasions, they said that the
food was very good and the service too... Hopefully the
unpleasant service and food can be attributed to the crowd
at that time..

I'm willing to give Sek Yuen another try... in the future....
How else did the restaurant manage to survive for so long
if they always provided lousy food and service...

Anyone interested in joining me after my finals?? ;)

Some random pics from Joe's and Gary's Birthday

Since I'm waiting for AVG to download a big update and
the connection speed is suprisingly fast.. I decided to upload
a few more pictures from Joe and Gary's Birthday at Poppy:


















Gary and Joe having an exchange of drinks
that will send them to heavenly bliss...notice
Noah as God pushing them on...

















Joe getting the "Kiss of Death" from Noah aka God


















Alfred hiding, Gary looking cool, Jeffrey drunk,
Ah Kit the charming, Pik Wah the smiling and noah the
what are u guys doing look....

















Alfred "the hand", Jeffrey "the blur", Gary "the finger",
Pik Wah "the toungue", Noah "no eye see" and
Pei Yin "the smile"

















Joe, Weng Fong, Gary & Noah






















Gary when's he's already high standing on the
sofa... this is what we call "self-blow"
















Me and Pei Yin with Joe doing a Marilyn Monroe
pose behind...
















Pik Wah, Lyn, Nigel and Joe
The girls look like they are more interested in
their drinks then the camera :p

















Yee Mun, Lyn and ME..






















Due to cameraman's fault the pic
of Me, Yee Mun, Lyn and Pik Wah
became only me and Yee Mun...

















Alfred, Me, Gary, Jeffrey and Yee Mun

















Alfred pushing Gary out of the way while
we took pictures with Pik Wah, Lyn and Yee Mun

Sunday... the Day of Birthdays...

Well the good news is that I managed to connect to the
internet using the bloody Jaring dial up connection, the
even better news is that I may soon have a streamyx
connection in the near future...near being the time it
takes for TMNet and HP to process the application form
and installing it in my home...

Back to proper blogging material.... Sunday was quite an
eventful day... Decided to go out and joined Joe's Birthday
Dinner at Souled Out, Hartamas with Choon Weng,
Yee Mun, Ernest ,Alfred (whom I dragged along) and
Joe the main character of course... he was kind enough
to subsidise RM100 of our total bill. We spent most of the
time reviewing wat happened in the drunken orgy of friday
night.. sorting through the puzzles and what we saw that
night.. I don't have a photo of our dinner at Souled Out
but here's a pic of Birthday Boy, Joe on Friday at Poppys
while he was still sober... :)

















We left Souled Out at approximately 10.15pm and
me and Alfred had another Birthday party to attend
to...which was Sim Ee's Birthday... Sim Ee is our
primary school friend who recently got back in touch
thanks to the small gathering I threw during CNY...
It was supposed to be a suprise gathering and we
gathered at Station One in Taman Mutiara... Me
and Alfred arrived there to find some of the guys
and gals playing a game of UNO as the Bday Girl
had not arrived and her birthday was to be celebrated
at midnight. Played a game of UNO between Alfred,
me, Valerie and Audrey ended being beaten by Audrey
even though I managed to get to the last card 4 times..
:( Guess I sucked at UNO. We then played a couple
of rounds of Heart Attack and luckily didn't lose...
The Bday Girl finally arrived with Yvonne and Li Ping.
we waited till 12am and took the cake over to her
table while singing the good old Birthday Song..
She wasn't really suprised as there was a leak in
information...by I don't know who...

Chatted, ate the cake, shared a bucket of Carls with
Alfred and ended being red all over the face for the
pics... Here are two of the pics I took.. Two being
a dial up user I can't spam upload pics like most of
the other lucky people...
















The Birthday Girl, Sim Ee is in the Red shirt
with the peace sign...aww how innocent..wahaha


















The group of primary school friend in attendance

Jaring's Stupid Service....

Tried to get online last night to update the blog but had trouble
connecting guess what... Everytime I called the dial up no.
I got the voice saying

"Welcome to i-Talk prepaid"

Maybe Telekom Malaysia was trying to hijack Jaring's no or
there was a change in dial up no which I was not informed of

So I thought, I'll just call up Jaring's Customer Service but to
my suprise their automated voice directionary did not have
a selection for dial up customers just one for other services
and one for broadband customers..

I tried going for the broadband customers and one of their
technicians picked up and said that for dial up customers
their service center was only open from 8am to 10pm..WTF!!
He could not provide me with any assistance...

How could Jaring provide such service offering a 24-hour
support for broadband customers and a normal support for
dial-up customers... can't they merge both of them???
Eventhough dial up customers pay a lesser fee and make
up a smaller portion of Jaring's revenue is that the way to
treat customers?? Given the the stiff competition its facing
from TM NEt I don't believe this kind of service would
endear Jaring's users to it but in fact drive them away...

I'm going to give the Jaring people a new hole in the posterior
if I can't connect online tonight before 10pm since their service
center closes at 10pm....what a absurd policy for providing
support to paying customers...

Joe and Gary's Birthday Celebration at Poppy..

Sorry for the week long break I took from blogging as I
was kind of lost last week and had absolutely no idea
on what to blog on... But here I am back in action...

We celebrated Joe and Gary's Birthday at Poppy's
last friday as exams were near and we needed to clear
the partying soon and be really sober for exams.. :)
The even was actually organised by Noah and I was
just helping to organise.. really nice to take a back seat
to organising stuff and let someone take over the
burden for a while.. In fact, Noah will also be the main
organiser for our Lang Tengah Trip after our Finals.. :D

Well back to the original topic... It was my first time down
to Poppy's and it was a great place to go clubbing though
the open air concept would be quite hot and stuffy if the
weather was humid... Luckily Noah who know's people for
clubbing places got us a table in the far end of Poppy which
was air-conditioned and the was where the live band
jammed and it was quite a cool place to hang out in...
It was also the first time you can get people in the club just
by mentioning the words "Noah's Table" ;)

We opened a total of 7 bottle that night and needless to say
there was a lot of drunkards at the end of the night... Most
of us arrived around 11pm and by that time almost 4 bottles
of Dewars had been finished... They opened off the night
by forcing Joe and Gary to blow the bottle for as long as
the accumulated time all the girls present could blow the
bottle... Ended up Joe and Gary had to blow the bottle for
19 seconds... what a way to start the night.. In fact by the
time Ernest arrived at 12pm the 5th bottle was already almost
finished...Wahahaha..... serves u late for not being on time.. :p

Lot of funny things happened through out the night... A brief
summary of stuff which happened is:

Joe was KO'ed within the first few hours and vomitted into
the ice bucket...

Cave transferred alcohol mouth to mouth to Ernest TWICE!!!

Cave got molested by someone who we don't know...whether
it was a gay or a ah kua we'll never know...

Gary was drunk but in the loud hyperactive kind of way...which
was kinda annoying as I had to babysit him...

Gary jumped on the sofa shouting for a 'graveyard' so that he
could be KO'ed

Pik Wah and Alfred melted ice by holding each other's hands...
(New tactic according to Ernest...bring the ice buckets)

Jia Wei was sober the whole night as he brought Yvonne along..

Cave drank a cup full of I don't know what..

Joe and Gary got their birthday kisses

Jeffrey got drunk the first time since his birthday last year where
he drank a flaming and two graveyards... was talking nonsense
in a high pitch voice and cursing here and there... appologised
for his actions later on...Motion passed by me and Alfred that
Jeffrey could never ever touch alcohol and should remain the
driver for the rest of our clubbing outings...

Gary approached and sucessfully brought two girls over to our
table but his finishing was not good enough...
(Ernest called for Gary to be dragged out and be be-headed...)

Yee Mun was missing for a while (she was actually dancing with
Nigel) Noah called her hp and Choon Weng picked up causing
Noah to ask "Who the F**k is this?!!!) wahahaha Noah's just
being protective...

I didn't do much that night was sober enough to drive Jeffrey's
car back to Sri Petaling and then Alfred's car back to Midah.
Spent most of the nite taking photos and also babysitting Gary.

As I'm using a dial up connection to the internet, those who are
looking for pics can visit Yee Mun's blog for them at:

Stripped

Well that's about all I think I have to say so till the next time..
Ciaoz

...Emo...

Hmmm I've been wondering... why have
I been sleeping early these few nights...
I don't really feel tired but its just that I
feel there's something missing in my life...
Exams are coming and it like a swinging
guilottine over my head but sometimes
I feel that its already written in stone that
I'll graduate with a meagre 3rd class and
fight unsucessfully with all the other people
in the job market.

Speaking of job market I don't even have
an inkling of where I would like to work
or what kind of industry I would like to
enter... and even if I do I don't think I can
get pass their preliminary interviews given
that everyone is so qualified...what do I have
to give that other people don't?? I'm really
searching for that answer...Will I live out
my whole life as a white collar worker??
struggling to climb up the corporate ladder
struggling with a average or below average
income?? Will I be able to support my
parents, my aunts who have been so
supportive of me all the time...

Sometimes I feel like I have let a lot of
people around me down. I don't really
know when this feeling of resignation
and hopelessness befell me...was it
when I decided to join the UOL
programme??

After joining UOL I've been either
skipping classes or sleeping in classes
like no one else's business... Have not
find the drive to study much... been
plagued with so many distractions...
Dota, Clubbing, Yamchas and not
to mention the emotional kinds...
Even when I go to the library everyday
I can't really study there much and not
to mention when I'm at home.. I get
pestered to study by parents, aunts
& my grandmother but I just let them
go in one ear and out the other... They
don't believe I'm studying in the library
in a way they are right... but what's the
use of studying in the library for 6 days
in a 7 day week when upon arriving at
home ur stuck with naggings to study,
dissapproval, comments which are
condescending and really hurts... I
even have trouble going out to chill
out with my friends on the weekends
be it Friday or Saturday... really hate
this feeling of boredom of doing nothing.
The best solution I have for this is to
just shut myself in the room and sleep..
Pass time by sleeping, feeling nothing
and awakening to find that another day
has gone by with the blink of an eye...
With all these I go out like no one else's
business during college time and normal
time when I should be studying on
weekdays and I feel the guilt but its
a never ending cycle for me...coz even
if I study I won't get any slack from my
family. This is a dangerous thought and
a ticking time bomb but I can't help it...
In the end I'm sure I'll regret this way
of thinking but that's for the future and
the present is now...

I have always felt that I'm missing that
someone in life... someone who can give
me the feeling of contentment,
someone I can do the little things with,
have a heart to heart talk with, share my
happiness and pain but unfortunately I
never go further then having crushes..
Cause I know somehow one way or the
other I will be rejected and the pain
and hurt will be along to haunt me again.
I don't really feel that I would be able
to commit to having a relationship given
my sorry state of affairs... no transportation,
no cash, no time due to parental restriction
or maybe these are just lame excuses I
give myself... what about the lack of
confidence, the ability to take a gamble,
the ability to be myself around someone
i like, to be able to express those feelings
with my mouth instead of just keeping
them in my heart.. or I just can't bring
myself to take a step forward instead I'm
stepping backwards...I really don't know...
what's wrong with me...maybe a mental
block but I'm feeling sick and tired of my
pathetic life...

Somehow one way or the other it
always pop up when exams are near.
I'm hopeless dealing with these kind
of things... is it a passing feeling or is
it stress from exams or is it the empty
void in my life or is it that I've found
that special someone I don't really know...

I'm sure this last paragraph will raise
a lot of speculation and interests among
my SAD friends (Single, Available and
Desperate) mostly those from my MBS
group... but don't bother asking coz u
guys know u'll never get it out of my
mouth and ur earlier assumptions
during bak kut teh are already wrong...

There was even a time when one of my
MBS friend attempted suicide and was
scolded for his reasons of suiciding coz
they all (my MBS group) agreed if it was
due to stress I would have first dibs on
suiciding and he would have to wait for
me to do it first before he could do it.
( Don't worry I dont plan to end my life
anytime soon...it just popped up in my
head)

I know some people will say that I have
it good and there are even some others
who are even worse off then compared
to me...but I'm still suffering and I think
I have the right to voice out my feelings
about my life...

Damn emo post.. It might not have the
right flow and there maybe some parts
which might be left hanging coz all these
words come from my heart without
any structure or proper arrangement and
comes as I write this...I would normally
never ever post this kind of stuff coz it'll
raise a hellfire of baseless speculation and
assumptions... but I feel that a heavy
load has been lifted off my shoulders
and heart...

Bloody Public Holidays.....

Its now 4am and I just woke up... don't know
why but the past two days I've been sleeping
early due to reasons unknown. As usual here's
a rambling of what I've been up to yesterday...

Woke up late around 8.50 to the sound of my
dog barking as I haven't take him out on his
rountine walk...washed up, had breakfast, got
ready and made my way to college. Upon
arriving in college I found the whole building
lifeless and the library wasn't open... Guess
what... it was a public holiday and I didn't know
about it. I spent almost 1 hour travelling to college
and I wasn't going to waste my travelling time
and so I walked over to the McD in main block.

Sat in McD till 1.30pm before I couldn't take it
anymore so I called my friend Alfred to see
whether by chance he was working anywhere
near my college area. He was in KL doing an
installation and said that he would be finish by
around 2pm. So I called Jeffrey and he said that
he could pick me up from KL Sentral so I took a
bus over from college to Sentral. Upon picking
me up at Sentral I met Roy from Hong Kong who
is staying with Jeffrey on his 2nd Trip to Malaysia.
Knew him through my days at the leo club. Went
to Sungai Wang and brought Roy around the many
shopping complexes in the supposedly "Golden
Triangle" Went from Star Hill to Lot 10 to Sg Wang
and then onwards to Low Yat. Walked around
waiting for Alfred but the fella was late... really late
said at 2pm but till 5.30 still not yet done...

We went back to Cheras area and went to Leisure
Mall in the hopes of catching a movie before having
dinner but the timing of the movies were not suitable.
Wasted the RM3 parking. Alfred finally said he was
done and wanted to eat Bak Kut Teh so we headed
over to Maluri. He said that he didn't want to eat
the fat meat...(mayb coz he's been having too much
lately

I then went home by hitching on Alfred's ride,
arrived home to find Arsenal being down by 2 goals.
Had no mood to watch the match, bathe and linger
around for a while before going to sleep at 10pm

A Sleep Deprived, Time Wasted Day....

Well today must have been the most wasted day
of the year. It was the first time I went to college
empty handed coz I left my bag in John's car
as I followed his car to play badminton at TTDI
and left with Joe. I had only slept 4 hours for the
day as I "boiled" anime till 3.30am and then woke
up at 7am. Was pretty stoned and had to bring the
dog out.. luckily didn't pokai...

The first thing on arriving in college was to get a
seat in the library as there was a lot of people fighting
for cubicles in the library I took one and borrowed
a few sheets of notes from Lie Kim to reserve another
cubicle for Amy. Unfortunately a rude fat girl took the
notes away and sat her ass down in the cubicle.. how
rude of her... well in the end I gave up my cubicle to
Amy as I wasn't really gonna study anyway, just
slept at the big tables out front and then went for the
DESCO (Department of Economics Student Council)
meeting talked about some stuff and ended at 2.

I had earlier on planned a event packed day... I planned
to sleep in the morning then go for the DESCO meeting
and then go movie thought of calling Pik Wah and
Yee Mun as they had no classes then go for my
ex-colleagues farewell dinner at KLCC. I even woke
Pik Wah and Yee Mun up at 12pm to make sure they
had enough time to prepare...however YM set the
condition that she would only go if PW went. To further
make things worse PW didn't had transport. Initally
I thought of taking the bus to 1 Utama and they drive
there. I came up with a solution by stealing Kenneth's
car (not actually stealing my bro lend me willingly)
but when I messaged Pik Wah she said she went out
with her father to eat and don't know wat time going
back to her house.. stressed...send so many sms also
don't wan to give face.. finally had to cancel the plan...
fricking sad and depressed.. Really was frustrated and
felt like being let go aeroplane...(I am really anti-ffk,
it really gets on my nerve when someone ffk's me...)
Wanted to sleep in library but no cubicles and no tables
damn frustrated...finally found a empty table near the
photostat counter...was sleeping when noah called my
hp...he was at the pc row and could have seen me if
he just turned around..frickin pissed at having my sleep
interupted curse and curse.. till kenneth also suprised
and say he won't every wake me up when i'm sleeping..
(its not that I meant it but when I reach the fine line
between trying to sleep and sleeping I normally fly into
a rage if I was waken up for nothing important...so guys
and gals don't try me...u'll be suprised at what i'll say)


Woke up and yamch with the guys at 4 till 5.30 before
going down to KLCC Chilli's of all places.. getting sick of
Chilli's.. Had too much Cheese filled food...fell like going
on a cheese diet...

After the dinner hitched a ride home with my manager,
Vivian and upon arriving home found the power point
file that I did for my dad's friend was missing and will
have to re-do it tomorrow... stressed... Hopefully
tomorrow John is coming to college and I'll get my bag
back...my headphones are in there and without them
my iPod is useless... all in all today really feels like the
end of the world is coming...and hopelessness envelopes
me through and through...

Days goes by...

It has been an unproductive day for me today...
Was at the Sri Petaling Lrt Station in the
morning to hitch a ride from Noah but he ended
up 30 minutes late as Alex couldn't find his
house keys. Then had dim sum for breakfast before
heading onwards to college.

Arrived at college around 9.30am and started work
in the library as I had only allocated 4 more days
to study auditing. Was in the library till 10.30
when Yee Mun messaged saying that MSM class had
a break. Ended up in the staircase with Gary,
Choon Weng, Pik Wah, Kenneth and Yee Mun chatting
around. I left them to join Suet Mun and Lie Kim
at E & C as I had earlier promised them after that
went back to the staircase and still find all the
guys and gals chatting there as they sitted at
the staircase just chatting till the MSM class
ended and they went to get their bags.

We then went over to main block as Pik Wah drove
us to MidValley for lunch. PW's car was blocked
by a Naza Citra but luckily the fella had the
right mind to put his car in neutral and didn't
put his handbrake on and we could push the car
to allow PW to drive out. If he/she didn't did
that, I'm sure CW would have smashed his
windscreens...lol....

Upon arriving in Mid Valley we had to spend
almost 30 minutes to confirm where we were
going for lunch and finally decided on La Manila
which is next to Little Vietnam. YM & PW's friend
Celine joined us and then only PW told us that the
girls were going shopping after lunch...
(felt like going aboard a pirate ship). We then
followed Lyn, PW & YM around MidValley and had a
side expedition of going round Midvalley Carpark
trying to locate Lyn's car.

Pik Wah then kindly dropped me at college for me
to collect my stuff and then dropped me off at
Damansara Jaya where I joined the guys for a
takei session till 7.30pm. Reached home at 8.40pm.
Promised myself that I'll stay awake till 3am
to study and catch up for lost time... keeping
my fingers crossed that I'm able to do it...

K Day

Today I was in the library at 9.30am when I suddenly got
a call from a local landline which I do not know. It turned
out to be from Yee Mun...it seems that she lost her purse
when she went clubbing the nite before (hmph see go
clubbing without me lah...see wat happen :p)
She lost her chocolate (LG hp), IC and some cash but her
most precious belongings weren't the hp or the IC or the
cash.. it was her sms'es and contacts...(YM is a sms, blog,
clubbing addict) I was using my handsfree which is one
of those like headphones and was outside the library
when Pik Wah came after the FR class and i told her to
listen in with her using one side and me the other... It
looked so funny as people were coming in and out of the
lifts seeing a guy and girl sharing headphones talking and
laughing... YM didn't slept after clubbing upon knowing
her losses, she made a police report, got a replacement
sim card and also went to Pusat Bandar Damansara to
get a new IC. Then went home and contacted those whose
hp no's she remembered (I'm one of the lucky few...Yay..)

She then said that find plans for the night as she was going
to sleep the afternoon away... unfortunately for her,
Pik Wah used her as a shield saying that if Yee Mun went
to sing karaoke only she would go... this caused YM to get
calls from both Ernest and Gary calling her to go and
making her feel guilty...YM finally collapsed and said she
was going. In the end it was Me, Ernest, Gary, Pik Wah,
Yee Mun, Joe, Alex and Kenneth who sang karaoke in
Neway, 1 Utama from 1.30pm to 6.30pm. Was crazy
as Ernest entertained with his silly antics and hand
gestures and Gary with his hyper activeness... YM
didn't have a chance to catch any rest... caused she
was wakened up by Ernest or Gary whenever she dozed
off... She also had to attend a friends birthday party at
7pm... what a marathon of events to attend... Well hoped
she manages to reach home early and get enough sleep..
:)

Joe demonstrated how to open a locked toilet door with
a 20 cent coin in the Karaoke Room...and Gary tried it
a few times till the lock finally jam and couldn't open...
It was quite a hassle as we had to walk down one floor
to get to the nearest toilet... :( Hopefully they won't try
it anymore in the future. After karaoke, Alex and Kenneth
went off to join Noah and Pei Yin to study at Burger King
in Hartamas...hope they really made progress... as for me
I arrived home at 7.20, had my dinner, slept a while and
then bathe and now posting this on my blog so that
someone who has a lot of free time can read the crap I
write... u know who u are... :p